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Opinions welcome on my thoughts.
This thread is not going anywhere John. No guilt, no recrimination. You are part of a very large community and you chose to share your more personal trials, feelings and thoughts with us. Everyone participating does so of their own free will. Remember that.
You will drive the direction by replying or not. Your choice.
I wish your wife's cancer would just go away.
ps, There is a "General Chat" section for a reason!